I get so interested in the concept of dreaming and just exactly why you dream exactly what you dream. For me, I hardly ever dream. No wait, they say you dream every single night. So what I mean is I hardly ever remember my dreams. And when I do, it's always realistic. I've never had a dream of myself in a cartoon, or in black and white, or even seeing myself as if I'm watching my dream. I've heard of people having those. Or even sleep paralysis (is that dreaming?), is something I've never experienced. I have a couple friends who've experienced sleep paralysis and to me, it just seems like the scariest feeling. I've heard of people flying, teeth falling out, and other recurring dreams. I've never even had a recurring dream! haha am I even normal? So anyway, last night I dreamt something that I have never dreamt before...
I dreamt that I DIED!!!!!
Not only had I never dreamt my own death, this dream I actually saw myself. At least it wasn't a gruesome death, I think my heart just stopped while I was on a bed or something. Anyway, point is, I dreamt of my life ending. I was worried. I tend to think that if you dream something bad, it must mean something bad, and if I dream good, then it's something good. So immediately I looked up dream interpretation.
Die
To dream that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or in your life. Although such a dreams may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm and is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something. "Positive symbol" it says, =D. And now everything makes sense!
See, since the weekend, I've felt so stress free. Just a couple days ago I came back from Orlando for an interview with Ross University. I think we conversed so much that I can only recall the interviewer asking 3 questions. He ended with "I doubt you'll be rejected" and that was all I needed to hear. From the second he said that, I was as happy as can be. It's likely that I'll be MERP'd, and it's possible for straight admission, but whatever the outcome, I'M HAPPY! I'm glad he said it too, otherwise I'd be so antsy all break waiting for the decision call. Instead, I'm just relaxing and having fun, yay =)
And I've been thinking a lot too, that in about 3-4 months, my life will totally change. I could be somewhere totally different. I won't be seeing the same people any more. I'll be studying like I've never studied before. I'll actually be working towards my future career. Just thinking so much about my life changing soon probably gave me my dream of my death. Scary dream, but it's a good thing.
